#im sorry i just cannot understand the appeal lol

[beewritesstuff]

One Taste Could Send A Man To Heaven- Chapter 12

Chapter 12

Summary:

A year has passed in peace and love. Then, a letter arrives.

This is a spiritual successor to the first 11 chapters- a series looking into the small and momentous occasions in these lives.

Notes:

I'm switching from second to third person- I feel it makes more sense for this new arc of story! Vivi was my imagined name for the fictional 'you' of part one. She is all of us who want to be.

Plus, Vivi means "joy, or exuberant, done joyfully", so it also could simply be a Latin nickname for you from Gaster's muddled memory of the language.

Gaster blinked at the heavy parchment in his hand, mind racing.

The coronation of Prince Asriel as crown prince had been the talk of the city, perhaps even the world, ever since its announcement six months before. Their majesties had recently sent invitations to thousands but his was of a different nature, arriving with seals and ribbons, the Queen's words firm, mournful, and final.

"My Lord Grace,

Time passes, yet so little changes.

Your presence is both required and greatly desired by the Throne at his majesties coronation. The security of the event, appearance of our power, and safety of our people are of utmost importance, and like the general I once was, I am forced again to call my greatest soliders to me in this time of great strife and potential violence. Your skills and Gifts cannot be denied, nor can your penchant for avoiding large events at all costs. This is not one that We can afford you the dignity of being absent or anonymous, and We understand and acknowledge the weight beneath this seemingly simple order.

I also cannot deny my desire for the last surviving, original member of my parliament to be by my side as We face the emissaries of this strange, new world. Despite your constant denials, I was continually impressed by your grasp of decorum in those long ago times. Now I must require that you be properly re-acknowledged in your position within our society, with all the requirements and expectations that entails.

I understand the burden this places on your heart- expectations are not a healthy thing for a burgeoning partnership. Still, duty is duty, which is why I write this at my husband's side, and not from a place of more delightful company.

Monsters are alive and real again, and the public opinion (momentarily) demands we receive recompense for our harsh treatment. If part of that recompense includes lands and titles acknowledged, as We believe it will, then you are my most valuable asset in this coming future, more priceless than any gem or treasure of our kingdom.

I will say it plainly. You alone are of the originating, natural born greater nobility still living, and at the coronation, I require you to acknowledge your ducal claim and act as the arm of the throne that you so despise being. If she is to be a part of that life, then there are expectations to be set that she may not tolerate, and elevations that will be difficult to convey. If this is so, I ask that you will remember your honor and oaths to the throne, ancient but no less binding. We have been gone thousands of years, yet the expectations of wealth, nobility, and partnerships of love are scarcely changed from our time.

Her image will be scrubbed, her presence in every way maintained by those trained to do so. Freedoms she has grown used to will evaporate like morning fog; travel, casual appearance, even the ability to pick all she wears and buys. She will be drowned in gifts, and her home is not adequate even for 6 months of their storage, not to mention the risk of danger that so casual a living place invites with its location and build. You are an incredibly formidable man, but even the worst criminal can find luck once.

I understand the pain of what I ask, and the difficulty of the conversations to come. I hope beyond hope that she can find sympathy in her heart for your position, and the endless patience and tolerance required to have her life shift so dramatically.

(Written in a looser, less formal hand)

Formal phrasing allows so many evils to carry a veneer of palatability. I wish there was another way, Gaster, as I wish I had not spent the last forty years forgetting my last cousin on my mother's side. What I would not have given for the friend you once were to me, these horrible years...

No matter. I am sorry. We are sorry, though you know that he will never admit to it. The crown is a yoke that we cannot throw, and you are a rein that I cannot drop.

It will be a spring event, to celebrate new beginnings. The treasury will handle your expenses, and hers, if there are to be any. I pray that there will. The central records are rebuilding your identity and will soon have the appropriately aged writs of inheritance, endorsement, and rights prepared for your signature

(The ring is not original- if you can possibly remember where you left it, the old palace is practically a museum, untouched and undisturbed. For sentiment, I would love to see it if you find it. Do you remember all of us trying to fit every initial on the backs? Trinket insisted on all eight middle names...didn't we make her carve them on the band instead of the back of the signet?)

There is no easy way in my heart to end this letter. Please, Angels and Stars, be kind just a single time to this man who I once again must ask to do so much.

Her Royal Majesty

Queen Toriel Dremurr

Of the line of Constellatio

He dropped the letter and the signet ring that came with it, and stared out the kitchen window at the rising sun.

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[real-fire-emblem-takes]

this is not a take technically this is an advertisement for my favorite fe pairing but hello i think everyone should consider lon’qu/tharja. they’re very sweet. their chain is one of lon’qu’s few backstory/lore-involved supports and unlike the other one that gets heavy into it (cherche, also a good chain but we’re not talking abt that right now) where she already knows his history, he willingly tells tharja what’s haunting him and she’s sympathetic to his struggles and kind in tone as she responds to him. she wants to help him and works on devising a memory wipe for him. when he decides to not erase his memories of ke’ri because he doesn’t want to forget her even if his trauma is related to his memories of her she accepts it (although in en she does grumble a bit about it bc it was a lot of effort to prepare what she needed, in jpn the tone is a lot softer and she accepts right away and doesn’t press it.)

their s support is also very sweet. tharja is the one who proposes to lon’qu, saying she wants to be there for him and support him as he works through his traumas. robin does come up, as they do in almost all of her supports bar donnel & kellam :(, but she brings them up solely so she can bait him into giving her an answer because he’s like What at first and it’s funny to me. she’s like tch… whatever…. if you don’t respond i don’t care… i’ll dedicate the rest of my life to MU…. 🙄 and then lon’qu responds. LOL. and his jpn dialogue for this reply includes, and i quote: “I...want to be near you. You understand about me and women... I want to touch you...and I want to respond to that. I'll show you that I can overcome this flaw...” (TL: Miscellany on SerenesForest’s Awakening TL thread). like that’s such good dialogue. and his EN dialogue is also really good i just like that JPN bit. the EN is: “However, there is a strength and grace about you that I find appealing. You are the first to look so deep into my heart and accept what you saw there. With you at my side, I might finally free myself of this painful past.” still very good.

they just want to be with and support each other. he’s afraid he’ll put her in danger by them being together and she’s swift to say she can take care of herself. and then says (this one’s jpn dialogue again bc i love comparing en/jp dialogue it’s fascinating to see the differences) that she wants to get closer to him and asks him to promise that he’ll work to overcome his fears with her. and then he gives her a ring as proof of his dedication to her, showcasing he wanted to propose to Her and that she just beat him to it.

it’s sweet. they’re sweet. lon’qu’s future past conversation with noire mentions that being with tharja does in fact help him out a lot. they’re a pairing and a family that work together sosososo well. please consider them (i have pictures of their dialogues but i cannot attach them bc i’m anonymous so just take my descriptions of everything and handful of quotes sorry). lontharja the world 4ever

im convinced 👀

[viktoriakomova]

I saw your tag about true crime fans on Reddit and I just wanted to know if you have any #thoughts about the Bryan Johberger case? Personally I’m not convinced of his guilt or innocence either way but it is disturbing how redditors demonize the defense team for doing their job and want to just send him to the firing squad asap (sorry this is non gymnastics related feel free to ignore lmao)

oh girl im so glad u asked me this lmfao

i think hes most likely guilty but it really disturbs me how the peanut gallery thinks throwing constitutional rights to the wind is fine just because theyre really emotionally attached to the case

ive gotten in several Fights in the comments with people on that case's subreddit to the point where i just lurk and downvote and dont engage anymore 🤡 like people are really sincerely convinced that they have a 0% chance of being accused of a crime they didn't commit and the State would never come down on them with all its might for unjustified reasons. lmao and lol.

like people suggesting that him waiving his right to a speedy trial is "retraumatizing" the victims' families because it will be dragged out longer and he CLEARLY did it so he's doing all this on purpose because he LOVES THE ATTENTION (that comes hand in hand with him literally staying in jail in the meantime but nope he just loves media scrutiny he's an attention whore!). meanwhile his lawyers NOT doing that, given all the evidence they have to plow through and the fact that its a CAPITAL MURDER CASE, would be a goddamn cupcake of an ineffective assistance appeal. but they dont know that because they learned everything they know about the legal system from law and order svu, and they dont understand that if this trial is bungled he'll walk away scot free! and they probably think double jeopardy is a moral outrage too lmao

and then there was a whole Thing about the issue of whether the trial would be broadcasted/streamed, and/or whether video recordings would be allowed. and people were like "transparency !!!! free press!!!!!" girl please be serious this isnt about free press (there are press passes for all major trials like this, btw) and you know it, this is about YOU consuming it as entertainment, integrity of the criminal justice system be damned.

same goes for stuff i saw from people during the kristin smart trial. like its literally written in black and white in the fifth amendment to the constitution that you have a right not to testify against yourself and people on twitter were still like "WHY CANT THEY FORCE HIM TO TAKE THE STAND!" and then once he was sentenced to "25 years to life" people were like "THATS WAY TOO LENIENT" bruh firstly thats the legal maximum and secondly he's realistically never seeing the light of day ever again lmao. if you dont understand what things mean just dont say anything!

the intersection of bloodthirst and self righteousness is crazy lmao. it dovetails quite nicely with gymtwt and the gymnastics subreddit in fact, like a lot of the rhetoric during the nassar sentencing (he literally did not have a trial i cannot stress that enough, he pleaded guilty) was deeply disturbing to me even though i also obviously believe he's terrible and should spend the rest of his life behind bars.

[lovebecomeshim]

hello! your zutara posting today has finally motivated me to ask this question because I came to atla very late(last year, to be specific) and I Love It Very Much but am 1000% out of the loop as far as why what remains of fandom (at least that I've seen among my friends) is so very strongly zutara. I'm not opposed to it per se I just don't really know what has driven it to apparently be such a popular ship? can you help me understand and maybe convert me a little bit?

Hey!! Your ICON! :D I can try but I’m not sure how coherent I’ll be; however I AM sure someone a lot more competent will be willing to add to this. Either way, I’m glad you asked because my plan was to drag down as many people as possible with me.

*smacks the hood of zutara* this baby can fit so much mutual love and support!

This got so long, I’m so sorry. I don’t know how to put it under a cut on mobile and it already got deleted once so I’m scared to mess with it lol. Moving on.

I’m gonna start this with a disclaimer that im on mobile so formatting is tricky and I’m also really new to atla in that I only completed my first watch through in like 2019??? So some of my info is all just based on what I’ve picked up from Discourse 👀 so anyway the sparknotes version: zutara was wildly popular from the beginning. To the point where the atla crew internally disagreed on which ship should be endgame. (Ex. Bryke [showrunners] asked the writers to rewrite The Southern Raiders to make Zuko seem less ideal for Katara than Aang [which failed, depending on who you ask]; the animation team purposefully created a visual parrallel between Oma and Shu in the Cave of Two Lovers and Zuko and Katara in the catacombs under Ba Sing Se in the Crossroads of Destiny; etc.)

The ship was popular enough that Bryke actually chose to display zk fanart at a con for the sole purpose of mocking the fans, but that’s neither here nor there. The entire episode Ember Island Players, while a love letter to/parody of the whole show, was an opportunity to address zutara’s viability as a canon pairing (while, again, mocking zutaras for romanticizing that catacombs scene). Point is! It’s always been popular but with it not being endgame, there’s got to be something that’s given it staying power.

And that’s honestly got to do with three things: their dynamic, thematic cohesion, and potential.

(You know what... you know what, it’s four things. The fourth is they’re so aesthetically pleasing together and individually. Like, they’re just good looking people [specifically when they’re grown but they’re also cute kids] and that absolutely doesn’t hurt) (but it’s not the Point, it’s just nice to point out sometimes)

The dynamic is hard to get into without also looking at the canon pairings, but I think I can do that without unnecessary bashing. It’s just that part of the magic of zutara is really highlighted by what they give to each other that their other relationships don’t.

First off, it’s classic enemies to (would be) lovers. The absolute truest form of it. It’s not too different from how CS started out: a rogue antagonist with a job to do—but no personal vendetta against the future love interest—who is deeply and emotionally invested in his personal storyline (revenge/redemption) with little regard for how it effects other people after his entire life and genuine good nature are marred by suffering, and a fierce warrior girl with a strong moral compass and her own personal investment in stopping him (protect her family and save the world doing it). Obviously frustration and animosity grew between them by the nature of them being on opposing sides, but that just lends itself to the sweetness of their later reconciliation.

The thing is that while they’re wildly different on the surface (he’s a hot-headed prince of a fascist regime who is trying to capture the Avatar to please his father; she’s a nurturing daughter of the chief who is trying to protect and train the Avatar in order to topple his father’s throne) they find out that they have so much more in common both in their experiences and their personalities.

(What follows is an excessive use of the word “both” and I’m sorry about that)(I can edit it. I can do that. That IS an option............)

They both have an innate sense of justice that they are determined to see done (zuko, at the war meeting, sticking up for the Earth Kingdom kid when the guards torment his family, choosing not to steal from the pregnant couple despite his circumstances, abiding by his word to leave the SWT should Aang come willingly, etc.; katara, literally.... at any point). They both have pretty one-track minds at accomplishing certain goals once they’ve put their mind to it, regardless of a lack of support in that endeavor (it goes without saying I guess, but zuko’s entire hunt; katara’s determination to get the earth benders to fight back, her determination to absolutely destroy Pakku until he agrees to teach her, etc.). They both lost their mothers at young ages. Their worlds are war-torn and traumatizing to them both, if in different ways, but that ultimately forces them to grow up too quickly to be wholly independent individuals. They both have issues with their fathers (for WILDLY different reasons, but). They both hold extreme prejudices that they need to learn to overcome (which ties into thematic cohesion)(bit like Lizzie and Darcy in that way but magnified by a million). They’re both extremely emotional and empathetic—which can and often does result in loud outbursts. Katara’s a bit better adjusted and can temper her anger for longer than S1 Zuko can, but they both feel that anger deeply and have no compunctions expressing it (Katara is, usually, more justified, particularly in S1. Again, S1 Zuko is severely maladjusted but at the point when they could’ve feasibly become a couple, he’s so much better off with the way he carries himself). They both struggle with feelings of inferiority in their bending abilities when confronted with prodigal benders like Aang and Azula, but have the work ethic required to double down and become two of the most powerful benders in the three remaining nations. This is a little more minor but it is a parrallel that appeals to some shippers that they both have these alter egos in the Painted Lady (notably fire nation coded) and the Blue Spirit (water tribe coded) that are pretty different from who they are day-to-day and are useful in accomplishing a purpose that they as themselves cannot.

(I’m.... I just realized that this could potentially get very long. Should I have made a slide show with bullet points??????)

Anyway, similar. I know there’s more but there’s literally so much to love about zutara that I’ll drive myself a little crazy trying to compile all the ways they’re similar. (Just gonna say that at this exact moment I went back to add more similarities.... so okay then)

Once they’ve reconciled, we see how all of these things only lend themselves to a deeper intimacy together than they share with literally anyone else. There’s a steady partnership that positions them as the mom/dad of the gaang, while also providing the support necessary to allow the other to not have to carry so much responsibility. A lot of zutaras will point out how zuko is actually depicted doing the more domestic chores that are normally relegated to Katara once he joins the gaang, since the others in the group are two 12-year-olds and sokka. The one that sticks out the most is how he makes tea for the group and then serves them, while Katara is able to just relax with her friends around the fire. Fanon expands upon this a lot to Zuko helping with the laundry or the cooking or whatever else needs doing since he, as a once-refugee, is used to doing his own domestic tasks. Before Zuko joined, Katara was the one mothering everyone, sewing for them, cooking for them, etc. She’s always tending to the needs of the group, and that includes emotionally. She does the emotional labor for the gaang 99% of the time, but when she’s the one falling apart, she’s usually doing it alone and without the comfort that she normally provides for others. Until Zuko. And that’s before they’re even friends.

Which is WHY people romanticize the catacombs of Ba Sing Se so much. Katara is verbally attacking Zuko out of her own righteous anger but also her own prejudice when Zuko, surprisingly, chooses to be vulnerable with her. He’s been on a journey that’s opened his eyes a bit, but he’s never actively chosen to expose the rawest parts of his past to anyone. But for some reason he chooses to do that with Katara of all people. While she’s yelling at him. He sees her humanity, and for once can look past his prejudice and empathize with her. And this time, when she breaks down, she gets to be comforted. Katara normally talks about her mother when she’s trying to explain to someone else that she sees and understands they’re pain, as a form of comfort to them. Here, Zuko uses the exact same tactic. He sees her and he understands. And for zuko? He’s not being shut down. He’s allowed to articulate his pain regarding his mother without being ignored and made to internalize it, and he’s allowed to process how he feels about his scar out loud without being told that he deserved it. And then he lets her touch his scar, something we’ve seen him actively avoid before. He’s completely open to her and she’s completely open to him and all it took was one five minute conversation. She was about to use the little bit of Spirit water that she had, that she was saving for something Important, to heal the scar that still daily causes him pain just because they had, somehow, connected.

Plus there’s the whole parallel to the star-crossed lovers forbidden from one another, a war divides their people—

And then zuko messes up, he regresses, he gets what he wants and he HATES it. And the sense of justice he had as a child has been restored to him against his will and he can’t think of anything he wants to do more than the Right Thing, so he joins team avatar. Before he does that though, we get to see his relationship with Mai, which is where comparison really comes in. And what we see is Zuko, fresh off of his encounter with Katara in the catacombs, trying to be emotionally honest with Mai... and getting shut down and dismissed. Which is just how Mai is and it’s fine, but not for Zuko. Still, he keeps trying, and he keeps getting ignored or scoffed at or yelled at. Which is really a larger symbol for how he doesn’t fit in his old life anymore, but again that’s about thematic cohesion. He tries to articulate his anxieties about returning home, he tries to make romantic gestures, he tries to explain how morally conflicted he’s feeling—and Mai diverts to some kind of physical affection to shut him up and a parting comment that is pretty much always, in essence, “I don’t wanna talk about this.” So they don’t. On the other hand, once zuko and Katara are friends, we see him again emotionally distraught and caught up in his anxieties about facing Iroh, and it’s Katara who comes to him and listens to him and comforts and encourages him.

Similarly, we have Aang clamming up and getting uncomfortable whenever Katara shows any negative emotion, usually resulting in him making excuses or running away. Or, in the case of the Southern Raiders, lecturing her on how she needs to just let go of her anger about her mother’s murder. People have talked this episode to death and usually better than I ever could, so imma... keep it brief. There’s a serious disconnect between Aang and Katara in his ability to empathize with Katara and her needs that has her tamping down her vulnerability and amping up her anger. He tells her that he was able to forgive his people’s genocide and appa’s kidnapping (petnapping? Theft??), which is blatantly not true but also not an entirely equal parrallel to Katara’s situation, and continues making these little remarks throughout the episode. But it’s Zuko that Katara opens up to. It’s with him that she’s able to talk about the most traumatic day of her life, and it’s with him that she’s able to get the closure she needs, cementing their bond as friends and partners. This disagreement between Aang and Katara is then... never resolved. They just never bring it up and hear what the other is saying.

There’s a fic called The Portraits of Ember Island that has a line that so completely sums up the heart of the matter for why people love their dynamic. For context, zuko has woken up early to help Katara with the cooking and they spend the whole time just letting one another talk, and zuko stops to ask why she always just lets him talk. And so she stops to ask why he’s always helping, and it goes as follows:

There’s just... so much mutual support! Trust! Intimacy!! And it just continues like that from the Southern Raiders on, listening to each other, advising each other, watching each other’s backs! And then! Literally saving each other’s lives!! I will never be over the last Agni kai. Not ever. Zuko may have been willing to jump in front of lightning for anyone, but he actually did it for Katara. And in a show, that’s the thing that really matters. It’s a fulfilled trope usually exclusively applied to romantic pairings, and it ended up applying to Zuko and Katara. And then she ran out into the middle of a fight with tunnel vision just to get to him.

Also!! Also Zuko pushing Katara out of the way of the falling rocks at the Western Air Temple!! And Katara catching him as he fell from the war balloon that he fought Azula on!! Before they’re even getting along, they’re the ones reaching for each other. They come to this place of equal ground, as partners, who watch each other’s backs, call each other out but still listen attentively and understand, and provide the support that the other has been sorely lacking up until they knew each other (whether that be from lack of effort or lack of understanding from others, or an unwillingness to accept it for themselves).

Then, trailing along under the surface of this, we see the themes of the show totally embodied by Zuko and Katara as individuals and in their relationship to one another. There’s a YouTuber, sneezyreviews, who has a, like, 2-hour explanation on why she not only loves zutara but also believes that their endgame would’ve actually elevated the writing of atla to new levels particularly because of thematic cohesion and resolved character arcs. It’s the zutara dissertation I never knew I needed, and it’s funny and eloquent and effective, so I’m just going to sum up her section on thematic cohesion to the best of my abilities and then link it for whenever you have the time. And I HIGHLY recommend it, especially if you want a full understanding of what makes zutara so great and gives it such longevity.

Guru pathik has a line that goes something like this: separation is an illusion; things that seem different are just two parts of the same whole. Iroh also tells Zuko something similar: balance and strength are achieved when the different nations come together and influence one another and celebrate what makes them each unique. And this lesson is a massive central arc that both Zuko and Katara go through, moving past a black-and-white, good guys-vs-bad guys, us-vs-them mentality and into a greyer, more nuanced view of the world. Zuko sees the fire nation from an entirely new perspective and while he still loves and hopes for his nations future, he surrenders his blind loyalty to them in exchange for an unflinching loyalty to peace and love. Katara too had to come to terms with the fact that cruel people exist in the earth kingdom and water tribes, while some fire nation citizens are just regular, kind people who also need and deserve to have someone speak on their behalf. And this is honed in directly on how they view each other. They grow in their individual journeys to be open to the humanity in the other and then, once they’ve found that, they’re able to grow more in compassion for others in a beautiful feedback loop. And this is all matched in the symbolism repeatedly and intentionally associated with them in canon: sun and moon, fire and water, yin and yang, Oma and Shu who found love despite their warring nations. Their individual arcs are completed in each other and complement the themes of atla beautifully.

The canon pairs... just don’t. Which, again, is fine. But the very things that give atla longevity and popularity are anchored in zutara. Kat@ang doesn’t accomplish this. They’re... nice. Sweet. Especially when you erase a good portion of their interactions in S3. It could’ve been just a sweet love story. (Personally, the dynamic between toph and aang accomplish the same thing that zutara does, with complementary personalities that fulfill the theme of opposites blending in harmony) M@iko, on the other hand, is less sweet but I think wasn’t even supposed to last. Zuko’s relationship with Mai seems to represent his relationship with his old life as a whole. He can’t be emotionally vulnerable, he’s goaded into abusing his privileges, his agency and opinions aren’t respected. They just don’t have common ground with which to discuss anything that matters, so they don’t. As far as themes, the relationship doesn’t fit with atla. It’s zuko returning to and sticking with what is (on the surface) like him, what’s expected. Fire nation with fire nation. Fluid water bender with the flexible air bender. Like with like, separated from what is different and challenging and complementary.

And all of these things combined of course lead to the potential for the ship. I don’t know how familiar you are with the post-atla canon but... well, miss “I will never turn my back on people who need me”, miss “I don’t want to heal! I want to fight!” ends up living quietly in the SWT as a designated healer who turns a blind eye to the water tribe civil war happening right outside her front door. Which can be fine! People change! Some people just wanna stay inside. I just wanna stay inside! But the potential future for zutara is so much more satisfying, with Katara becoming the most unconventional Fire Lady the uppity old cads who are stuck on the old ways have ever seen. Fanon has her serving as a voice for the other nations within a kingdom at the point of its biggest political upheaval, as a confidante to Zuko who can actually help him while he’s trying to figure out how to move forward and make reparations. They have the opportunity, together, to accomplish what they both have set on their hearts to fight for: positive change that lends itself to harmony and balance. And the steambabies! A popular headcanon is that their firstborn daughter, the crown princess, is actually a waterbender, which causes such an uproar among the people who are adamantly clinging to the old ways. It’s just a future full of potential to be forces for good together, full of trust, intimacy, joy. The exact era of peace and love and balance that zuko announces that he intends to ring in with the start of his reign as Fire Lord is, again, magnified by the very personal zutara relationship. And we love to see it.

tl;dr zutara isn’t for everyone. Some people just don’t vibe with it. Some are nostalgic. Some love the canon they grew up with. Some have been disappointed for years. Some just see themselves in other characters and want their happiness instead. Whatever the reason, that’s fine. But for me, I love the way these two, from the moment they give each other a fair chance, are able to lower their walls and prejudices to see the other for the kindred spirits they are. They see each other’s humanity, and their response is to pour out love and support and compassion. I love that they’re a power couple in battle. I love the symbolism and, honestly, soulmatism that colors their every interaction. I love that they embody the whole storyline of atla in their relationship and how it develops, which is notably why their seasonal arcs always culminate in each finale with how they relate to one another. I love that zuko adopting a waterbending move is what actually saves his life and then katara’s. I love the chemistry! And I love the future they could’ve had, instead of the ones they were given.

So, in conclusion: I just think they’re neat and I hope you do too, at least a little bit. Even if it’s just respectfully from a disinterested distance cause you do you. And now here is the video I mentioned. I’m sorry this post got so long and then I gave you an even longer homework assignment, but I can’t recommend it enough. She says it all better than I can.

[clanoffelidae]

Brachycephalic animal lovers this post is not for you I just don’t know how else to tag it and I mentioned these breeds, sorry. :( (Not in that I’m saying the animals deserve to be hated, absolutely not, but that I don’t like the breeds.)

I’ve literally never found brachycephaly cute in dogs and cats, or severe forms of it anyway. Mild doesn’t really bother me although it looks a bit odd, but then again mild brachycephalic animals usually don’t need much if any treatment for it because they’re overall okay!!!

But severely brachycephalic breeds??? Like pugs and persians??? I’ve literally NEVER found them cute or appealing and cannot see why people like them. And I don’t mean this in a ‘hohoho im so special and above their cute allure’ way, I mean that it literally does not activate my cute response and never has. All I can ever see is a severely deformed animal whose features I can’t fathom people finding so cute they insist on breeding them and making it worse. Like seriously, look at this!

No!!! That’s not cute!!! That’s disgusting and I feel sorry for the poor thing!!! I certainly don’t blame animals like this for their own issues and would never treat them with disdain for how they look, if anything I’d be trying to smother them because I feel so bad for them!!! But I don’t understand what the hell people see in that that makes them want to make more of them.

It’s like seeing a janus cat and going ‘yeah let’s make a breed out of that’ like no??? Maybe let’s don’t??? Just look at what you’ve done to the poor things!

The individual animal who just happened to be born like that isn’t to blame and is just as lovable as any other critter but maybe let’s not purposefully breed animals to be severely deformed for our own aesthetic desires???

Janus cat for those who have no idea what the hell I’m talking about with that lol. Condition is called diprosopus (craniofacial duplication)

Frank and Louie who beat the odds and lived to be 15 years old! What a tough old boy <3

And here’s Duo who is currently still alive and kicking! She’s about 3 years old right now I believe?

(Had her middle eye removed)

Like I am so impressed by and proud of these fighters for defying the odds and keeping strong despite the way they were born, but would I ever want to breed a cat like that on purpose?

NO

And I cannot understand why on earth people want to breed severely brachycephalic animals either. I just don’t get it.

[iconsumeheadcanons]

persona characters autism headcanons!

hi im autistic and i started my day with sun so now im !!!!!!!!! some of these headcanons are from elsewhere on tumbr, but i dont know where :(((  so i am hoping someone out there knows that n that everybody knows that i love them <3

(also go check out mollypaup and i think hypeswap if you havent already! they post some good stuff autism+adhd hc too!!! i think.. oh! and thieves-in-the-palace!!!)

P5

Joker

there was some artwork from someone on tublr..where they pointed out that he doesnt really talk outside the metaverse so--hes hyperverbal as joker and just near nonverbal as akiren

he stims ALL THE TIME. that phone thing, the pencil thing, the little tappy tap of his foot, pulling at his bangs when hes embarrassed/smug. someone get him a fidget spinner. he’ll prob learn to do tricks with it

he probably sucks at focusing in class, like i know its just the game design but hes always surprised out of his daily “star out the window at the nearby office building” when his teachers ask him questions

mona mentions when the pt is at Wilton for the first time (after they run into shido) that joker eats like shit, and that could have multiple causes at the start of the story of course, but when i first played i thought that joker was a picky eater and that the variety (and amount of food) at the buffet would be an Ordeal...

tho mona makes that comment bc joker looked pale after having a little ptsd moment from shidos voice, but i didnt know that the first time i played

maybe when joker makes a face at ryuji putting so much ginger in his gyudon? joker probably does not like pickled ginger lol

his favortive foods are all spicy, which is why the curry he makes for his friends is always ‘overly spicy’, and why kasumi makes him a curry bento and joker kept going “...?” .... “....?!”

overly reflective glasses have been a great plus for him bc now he never has to make real eye contact every again!

mona Soft. play with Ann hair. maybe Braid. nice

puns (Gorou the Goroumet)

he has so many options to be straight up rude sometimes in game. he probably no clue on his own, which is why he defaults to Not Talking. people probably mention his constant scary face, which is just him being nonexpressive, squinting at all the fucking bright lights, and Tired

executive function who? we do everything last minute folks

high pain tolerance, which is why he was the kid that was always climbing trees in elementary school to get basketballs unstuck from the branches

his sixth sense lets him see treasure and possible places to climb/crawl bc 1. Shiny? Steal it. Steal it Now. and 2. Could i fit in that? Time to Find Out

probalby a bit of a klepto too oops. he’ll return it tho!! but he has to do it dramatically or he’ll die

cant sit properly to save his life

smells and touch are Great, they can keep him grounded when his brain goes off to police or dead rivals or guilt or

if a friend hung out with him and gave him total reigns of the agenda, he would choose to nap on the floor while his friend does something off to the side quietly

hyperfocuses on handy tasks (i.e. lockpicks, coffee brewing, cleaning, his part time jobs) and some things like movies and books. everything else is a tossup

his (normal) navigation app is his most used app bc he still doesnt know where hes going, even though he only goes to the same few places in the city

hates being sweaty, literally cannot stand it. probably double exhausted during the summer

but Needs Compression so hes often Struggling

Futaba

paraphrase from p5d “i have no motor skills so i cant play rhythm games :(” need i say more? (i will regardless)

echolalia all the time, from anime, memes, the PT

those headphones she wears all the time? noise cancelling ear protectors babey

only talks about her interests, “normal” talking is Not Easy, but she is still communicative w others despite her worries. shes not “hard to understand” at all but she feels the anxiety nonetheless

only talks informally, cannot talk ‘politely’ with out imitating someone around her

shes had meltdowns and anxiety attacks in game :( i relate so hard

Technology. thats it

def had an egypt phase that pops up every few months. probably came from yu-gi-oh

has Immune to Bright Lights buff.  joker is very jealous

“Time to make like a tree and leave!” and 30 other iterations

video game metaphors are the only ones that makes sense to her

probably relates hard to robot characters in anime for their general androgyny and confusion about human emotions and connections

probably gets told that shes “too smart to be on the spectrum” by teachers >:( she fails their classes on purpose

wakaba’s autistic too that just how it is

the Connection that she establishes with Joker is so Warm. my life goals include adopting an older brother like futaba has lsdkfjslkfj

also eater of 5 foods only, i mean, she brings cup ramen to the beach. i just really admire her...

hides in small spaces for comfort

doesnt she have like uhhhhh hyperthymesia or something like that?

Yusuke

art

his entire social link is learning how humans work, which i relate

talks seriously all the time

“sarcasm? who is that? are you saying I was sarcastic?...how?”

cant remember to take care of his body, and madarame did not help with that either

lot of uncomfortable staring, hes overdoing the eye contact thingy

infodumps all the time, doesnt know hes doing it

needs a lot of support even if he doesnt think he deserves it. no one ever complains about helping him out tho

visual stims my friends

he didnt know that you could look up pictures on the internet but he does know you can stream live videos of waterfalls and fluffy animales!!

I am certainly in the mood

for something salty today.

he and joker are scared of math. numbers do not interact

Yusuke, futaba, and akiren are a trio and i know this bc their first day of non-thievery interacts is Akiren clearing Futabas room w/o permission, futaba hyperfocusing on destroying medjed, and yusuke rearranging futabas figurines so they are more visually appealing

morgana is a support friend for all of them bc igor knows they need it

P4

Souji/Yu

yes, he mostly wears gray semi formal clothes bc parents tell him to, no, he will not changes this

Schedule or Death

“sorry, could you repeat that?” “huh? oh yeah, i was saying that--” “yeah that’d be cool.”

cats, fishing, he just likes to be quiet. you can literally spend a day at the beach just to think if you want, and that is what yu want

has a lot of scripts for things (of which he shares with nanako!) but if he runs out he just stops talking..

inaba is a godsend bc its so fucking quiet and warm

he Yearns to hold his friends hands, but he shies away from a lot of touch (excepting yosuke, teddie, and nanako)

Cooking and Cleaning makes the world better. he and joker vibe together with this

unlike akiren, he strong arms any executive dysfunction into Be Productive or Else. his punishment is feeling the pure anxiety of having to make up for ‘lost time’. (another symptom of his workaholic parents)

writes everything down, notes are very neat, has pages dedicated for bad doodles when hes not feeling his usual Super Classroom Focus

Cannot handle secondhand embarrassment (most often caused by yosuke) and will quietly slip away to random cats or origami folding

hungry, crunch crunch folks. probably needs chewelry bc he used to chew on his shirt collars when he was younger.

cleans up after everyone in the food court, constantly worries about them accidently hurting themselves. likely spends half of group conversations watching peoples hands

he canonically eats expired food, nanako plz help your brother

really clumsy, but people only notice after they decide that he is a cool person

video games are too chaotic for him

exhausted every night from the pure amount of masking he does, if a friend spends the night (or is like yosuke) they will know his more comfortable weirdo self (tho everyone knows hes a weirdo eventually)

hyperempathetic, sometimes just understands animals and children better than peeople his age or older

Yukiko

her jokes

she and souji get in ‘trouble’ together, she and joker commit crimes together

she and chie have to coordinate outfits, its important

actually understands metaphors, but does not understand people

like me, had no clue that creepy kid was flirting with her

she is very angry when she has meltdowns that might involve slamming doors and shouting. her parents call these ‘tantrums’ and ‘unfitting for a polite daughter’ but really thats because her meltdowns tend to be caused by arguments w her family after a long day of school and TV world traipsing

the metronome meme, except hers goes between Loudest Person in the Room to Quietest Pin Drop in the Planet. she is completely unaware of this

her atmosphere brightens when chie appears. that is not only the lesbian energy within her, but also because chie is like her Favorite Person

Cannot wear Pants. No (tho she wants to try it! but she puts them on and her soul instantly squashes)

happy flappy lesbian! watch out!

Naoto

the pouty face. all the time lskdfjlasdkf

hes really snappy sometimes and i love that for him. he and akechi should fight just to see what would happen (please read Bang Bang Shoot Shoot on AO3)

“do not touch me or my hat, thank you”

no one has ever seen him shutdown and no one ever will (except for his grandpa)(and kanji)(and rise)

probably likes certain food textures and will stand for nothing less, probably feels embarrassed about his preferences with friends

constantly jumps between ‘everybody hates me so i should act like them so they dont hate me’ to ‘i refuse to be anything but very comfortable as myself, and i dont care that im making you upset sir’

he and souji are the king and queen of subtle stims, but for unhappy reasons :(

does not make jokes. cannot joke around. understand? yes, do? no.

loose clothes are the only good clothes, but all tags and obtrusive seams will be obliterated by kanji tatsumi

not very empathetic so he probably comes off as an asshole to strangers (like when he throws away his classmates confession letters without reading them) but he tries so hard to sound comforting when his buds are struggling.

his understanding of others emotions/reactions come from his learning as a detective, which seems cold+clinical to others, especially compared to souji, whos completely unexpressive but very introverted people person

P3

Hamuko/Minako/Kotone

big personality!! very people-oriented!! koromaru and her are buddies!! when shes having a real bad time, shes very quiet and expressions turn off

interrupts herself in the middle of conversations all the time. no one knows where shes coming from. her brains is thousands of km ahead of her body

bouncey legs, swingin arms, twirlly skirt, little somersaults! when will she stop? never!

very obvious music stims with her hands and arms! people are like “oh there she goes! happy as usual!” shes listening to minatos heavy metal playlist

switches from exhausted to excited within milliseconds. no one can predict, not even her

SEES has to ask her for context all the time cuz she’ll just continue shit from 2 weeks ago without warning

professionals will assume shes very childish bc of how chipper she is, but she is beyond mature for her age and only feels comfortable enough to have serious conversations if a person has proved themself able to handle it

collects every little thing. her room is a mess and she has to get rid of most of it every time she moves :(

hates cleaning! smells bad, feels bad hhhhhgggg

dont let mitsuru-senpai see her bedroom

gets lost in the middle of conversations with others bc shes thinking about a story connected to one(1) word that was said earlier

 no sense of time and place, she just sees her friends and goes “ah, this is the right place, then” but junpei and akihiko are also lost so now theyre all screwed

Minato/Makoto/Sakuya

no talkies, no walkies

his story in the movies is him literally learning how to function around people he cares for

doesnt get jokes, expressions, body language, empathy, subtlety, metaphors, physical contact, or eye contact. aigis is probably the only person he truly understands right away

he is still nice to people because he doesnt see a reason not to be, but also he has very limited energy so only his senpai and old people get his most polite-kindnesses

cannot describe feelings for the life of him. the team wont know hes injured or sick until hes passed out

everything is too loud, time to drown it out with my loud ass music

rocking and chewing stims, ryoji is the first person to point him out for these subtle stims (not accusingly of course, just general pure curiosity and love for the uniqueness of humanity)

likes to cover his face with whatever is available, lives like a bat in a dark dry cave

will wear anything that has pockets and his blue/gray/black palette

sleepy at all times bc he never has much energy

when he was younger he probably needed a lot of support, especially after his parents died, because he wouldnt communicate like a neurotypical and would shutdown for hours in the middle of school without warning. probably missed a lot of lessons and field trips out of pure overstimulation

eating at all times. no preference, just whatevers closest

his meltdowns probalby include humming whining noises and curling up in a ball, which makes people want to touch him, but that is the LAST thing he wants. put a blanket on him! play some music! do not talk and do not expect him to speak

aigis is the only person who can touch him normally bc her hands are cold and he likes cold

never nude, feels mmmmmmmmm without clothes and probalby wears a full robe in the hotsprings

will not do things that take more than one step w/o someone else walking him thru it, which Same

[mychemicalaromanticism]

things ive already established r on this post

besties this got so fucking long but heres a giant ramble about cherri

okay so. there are huge differences betwn cherri as a hyperviolent drac hunter and cherri as a friend of the four and cherri as the girls mentor. with the first one he was 17 and desperate to distance himself from his upbringing so he went all in on Being A Killjoy. he was always one of the first ppl to rush into a fight and he fought hard. he blew up his fuckin hand with that attitude. and all the while he was just racking up more unaddressed trauma and eventually he ran away from that, too. giving himself radiation poisoning was more appealing than facing his problems.

so as a teenager/young adult hes kind of constantly in a panicked state. hes scared the people from his past are going to find him and drag him back with them. so he lashes out and he runs away over and over again.

i said in another post that he has some past life shit goin on which usually would give him a connection to the witch that manifests early in life, but with all the stuff hes gone through he has been Preoccupied. he can become oblivious to almost anything that doesnt apply to whatever hes focused on. not in a hyperfocus way its likeeeeee. when u live on survival mode during prolonged periods of stress. hes immune to magic bullshit bc hes too tired and scared.

anyways around his mid-20s he finally has a little more stability (as much as the average person living in the zones can have, that is) and he finally notices that Weird Stuff happens around him. basically: out of my list of Powers People Connected To The Witch Have he has the prophetic dreams/enhanced intuition as well as a form of sensing ghosts where he can see auras and kind of like, echoes of past events in ppls lives. that look like auras. itz complicated and not of utmost importance so im leaving it at that.

anyways thats what makes him start writing poetry. just 4 funsies he'll describe his weird experiences and embellish them to make em pretty. just as a casual hobby n all that.

he would forget fun ghoul in between the times they ran into each other but its pretty easy to be reminded of who fun ghoul is. the most insane 10 year old cherri has ever met. cherri isnt a brother figure to ghoul. hes just. his friend that happens to be more than twice his age. its whatever lmao

to cherri, ghoul is kinda like a stray animal he keeps seeing. which is hilarious. ghoul actually goes and finds him to introduce him to jet when they start running together, and cherri meets party and kobra (spark and birdie at the time) when he drives the four of them to a party. because he has a truck hell yeah. so now instead of one stray animal he has, like, a feral cat colony that he drives around occasionally. i have no real-life human relationship equivalent to them because irl if some guy that is not related to any of you and isnt even a childhood or family friend and theyre hanging out with you? they are usually not a safe person lmao. but this is my fantasy land and im too stubborn to change anyones birth years even though ghoul being born in 2004 makes everything really hard to make not creepy.

so yeah hes a casual somewhat friend of the fab four. hed probably get more and more concerned as they got famous. the beginnings of any sort of protective feelings, awww :) that sets him up for becoming the girls mentor.

OH FUCK. THE GIRL..... i think if i was in my late 20s and i heard that the gang of 13-17 year olds had adopted a 5 year old kid i would go bananas. what the fuck. it is a LONG while before cherri meets her. but he has the strongest affection for ghoul (if you could even call it that) and ghoul absolutely adores the girl and swings her around under her arms like a cat to show her off to cherri and its very endearing and the girl is sweet and funny so its easy to be around her. and (unfortunately) she is somewhat used to interacting with weird easily agitated people so she kinda gives him space. cherri isnt quite the uncle figure the fandom usually makes him (i luv uncle cherri sm but he simply cannot exist in the universe ive created, f), but hes a little similar.

and then the four had to go and pretend to die. lol.

when the girl was kidnapped, fucking everyone who knew her was ready to storm the city then and there. like regardless of how little you knew her, if you had ever met her you would fucking die for her. she is pure childish charisma and shes precious. i love the girl. so cherris immediately on board with whatever plan the four make to get her back. ive already talked abt how it fucked up the girl tho; there was no way to tell her that the four werent actually dead, she sees the building collapse and she shuts down. and cherri has to fight against his instinct to leave the radio station and never come back when he sees an eight year old girl sitting dissociated on the couch. that fucks everyone up.

i just realized i havent talked about literally anyone else at the radio station. i think cherri started lingering around the station bc it was safe and sheltered while also not being a popular spot. there are less kids there (people pass through but its not a hangout spot). he was kind of just hanging around to get away from the heat and noise and dr d took notice. because that man can see ur soul and no one knows if thats literal or not. so theyd chat a few times a day and show pony was the one 2 get him out of his shell a little and also was the first one he mentioned his poetry hobby to. im making this all up right now as im writing bc i dont know anything about LITERALLY any of the ppl associated w the radio like im not even going 2 try with chimp n newsie i do not have the willpower to tackle all that. justttt. cherri pony n D become bros and live 2gether there.

back 2 the regular timeline. the rescue mission happens in 2019. the girl lives at the station until 2023. during that time she is very much depressed and withdrawn and is only happy when the four come to visit. none of the Adults know how to help her so they just keep her safe and cared for and hope she'll open up to them.

she does not. she takes the weird cat thats been hanging around and she runs away.

cherri does not see her for three years. shes still worse for wear in the mental health department and he can see all kinds of visions of what shes been through since the last time he saw her and he fucking hates the ultra vs bc they remind him of his past. he does not want her going down that path but its obvious that she isnt crazy abt the ultraviolence thing either so thats a relief.

they have a kind of tense relationship throughout the comics. he feels like he failed her and that spirals into feeling like he failed the four for not being a good adult to them and fun ghoul for not helping enough when his commune was bombed and all kinds of shit and that irrational thinking mixed with plain old, yknow, caring about the girl, is what makes him take a bullet (laser. whatever) for her.

i was trying to figure out the timing of each of their ghost experiences, but i want both of them to talk to the witch and im just gonna make it like dreams where a whole buncha stuff happens but irl its been like seconds. so its like barely a second while the girl has her Witch Convo and cherri FINALLY gets a straight answer, yes there is weird shit going on with him having powers. he doesnt have any story-significant past lives because im lazy, hes just an old soul. like really fuckin old. the amount of latent life experience and stuff his soul/energy/whatever has picked up along the way makes him VERY noticeable to gods n stuff. he fuckin lights up all the alarms like what the FUCK is that over there. she wasnt rly able to get to him or even properly notice him while he was a kid and a young adult so shes happy to finally see him again. he has a STRONG sense of familiarity with her. they know each other on a wild ass level that he cant really comprehend.

welp thats some more lore I'll have 2 think abt. anywayz

post canon is when he and val get to have the most awkward spiderman meme moment of realizing that they have the same trauma SOOOOO thatz fun lol /s sorry kings i thought it would be fun to give u something fucked up to bond over <3

not much changes in his personality. he has a better understanding of Weird Magic and delights in freaking out the ultra vs but for the most part he returns to his life at the radio station. i love him

THIS GOT SO CRAZY LONG I DID NOT MEAN 2 GO THROUGH EVERY PART OF HIS LIFE LIKE SOME WEIRD CHARACTER STUDY but here we are. this is basically a first draft like almost all of this is subject to change but u gotta start somewhere. so heres my start i love this guy. its probably obvious but i have not read ANY twitterverse killjoys stuff </3 maybe i will someday idk

[cheekbites-moved]

ok i still havent gotten the secret ending but farming for it might take me a bit so im gonna make a thoughts post for age of calamity now:

Major spoilers obvs so ill put it under a read more

things i enjoyed:

revali beatdown simulator

the controls for the divine beasts are a bit clunky, but i think the angles they used for them did an excellent job at really making the player feel like we were actually controlling a divine beast. so i think it was done well.

link’s personality really gets to shine full force in this game with the amount of cut scenes and it was wonderful to see

every character clearly had a lot of love put into how they operate. they truly all feel unique, & all of their play styles fit them really well in my opinion

the game does a really good job of making you understand what a real threat the monsters are. like in botw they’re intimidating at first, but once you’re far enough into the game they become just an inconvenience to work around if anything. this game managed to actually make certain monsters intimidating for me again, and i think that’s a real accomplishment

the blight battles are actually somewhat challenging in this game and that is truly a commendable achievement lol i think all the bosses are good tbh. i didnt rly dislike or not enjoy any of them.

the way daruk and link’s friendship & urbosa’s motherly relationship towards zelda got to shine was. so good. it’s all i could’ve ever wanted

seeing the descendants again was really nice & it was awesome to see the champions interacting with them!! especially sidon and mipha omggggg. that was. really fucking good shit

kohga. just. kohga in general. getting to see more of him was really rad, he’s such a fun guy! and his english va was Excellent. you could really tell he was having a lot of fun playing him, and it was lovely to see! :)

zelda getting to really shine in this game was also lovely to see. and her being so assertive and badass by the end? omg. it was so wonderful especially after botw. man. 

the combat is done very well imo. im rly glad that they took so many elements from botw, but also added their own flares to make it feel fresh. it was rad.

sidon’s tagline is “winning smile” and his power is “boundless optimism” and i think that’s beautiful

the music in this game is SOOOOO good oh my god. multiple times during playing i had to pause to just appreciate it. it’s pretty much all remixes of botw with a few originals for the new characters, but they all slap. there was not a single song in this game i didn’t like. it is definitely one of my favorite video game soundtracks officially. maybe one of my favorite overall soundtracks in general tbh.

the visuals obviously look just like botw, but it still looked fucking gorgeous at some points. like. man. they really went off to make it look not only faithful to botw as far as appearance goes, but also as far as capturing botw’s beauty and it was. excellent to see!

if anything is true to botw’s backstory, it’s definitely how op link is. cause he was established to be op in botw, & when u finish botw he is also op as hell. he is so fun to play as the higher leveled he gets. he absolutely kicks ass. especially with a two-handed weapon??? daaaaammmmnnn. thats my badass baby boy!!!!

link eating rocks not once, but TWICE. just showing PEAK gremlin energy. 10/10 for those scenes they were great

the ending was really beautiful actually and i did cry like a little baby for it what about it

things i didn’t like:

obviously first and foremost.. this is not the game we were advertised. and no matter how much i overall enjoyed the game, it will always have some layer of being tainted attached to it due to the false advertising. this is not the prequel we thought we’d be getting. & not using “prequel” specifically doesn’t matter when all the advertising, including the box art talks about this being the story of what happened 100 years ago. with no indication it wasn’t the story of what happened 100 years ago in the botw timeline, but a separate universe/timeline entirely. i do hope we get dlc for the game at some point giving us what we were advertised, but at the same time... rly wish that the story that’s in the final game was dlc, & the story we were promised was the original :/ or just having the game have two separate storylines originally would’ve been cool. i just wish it wasn’t falsely advertised. 

fort hateno can fucking eat my whole entire shit WHY is that part so needlessly obnoxious compared to everything else oh my god

being forced to fulfill revali’s power fantasy TWICE hurt my soul

fuck any mission where you have to protect the useless hylian guards. i hate them. they suck.

the ai for player characters when you aren’t playing as them can also be pretty useless. it was really frustrating failing missions because my fellow party members weren’t helping me, and i was basically expected to be in two places at once to get shit done myself. :/ ik you can just switch between characters to make it easier, but like. i like playing as link the most. he’s my favorite character, & ofc since he’s mandatorily played for most of the story, he’s gonna be the most leveled up character regardless so he’s just the best to play as in general especially for harder missions. it was annoying to be forced to play as other people Solely cause the ai was so useless.

king rhoam’s attempt at a redemption arc. i’m not sorry that i just fucking hate this man. i don’t mind him entirely in botw bc you can see clear, genuine remorse during the cut scene at the end of the great plateau. but the redemption arc he gets in this game? after all the fucking shit he does in this game? especially when after his ~redemption arc~ i had to sit through a cut scene of him being an absolute fucking asshole to baby zelda after her mother just died????? absolutely fuck that shit. i don’t appreciate that crap at fucking all. he’s a verbally abusive piece of shit and i hate his guts.

obviously there was gonna be some retconning of how certain things worked in botw in order to make this kinda game work but the way sheikah technology works in this game is so goddamn confusing i do not get it. the works of botw are never outright said or explained completely, but it’s straightforward enough that it doesn’t really matter. this game does try to explain certain things and it just becomes. really clunky and confusing very quickly. 

the story is alright, i guess, but..... really confusing/convoluted as hell at times to a point that it’s. really fucking distracting. especially in comparison to how straightforward botw’s story is. like..... cannot help but be annoyed that such a problem wouldn’t have been a thing if they stuck to botw’s story.

i was sad when the egg thing died but i dont like the egg thing.... it is the MAIN reason shit was retconned so much & i just. dont get its purpose. but i did really like the reveal that zelda made it herself. that was good shit!

also the egg glitched out like. a LOT. idk what the fuck was going on with the poor thing but there was multiple times during a cut scene or when i was just sitting there that it was freaking out in the background and it was rly weird

elemental overworld boss monsters................. obnoxious. especially elemental guardians like goddamn bro what the fuck

i know warriors’ games aren’t about exploring anyway but the limitations for exploring was really sad/frustrating. this is still somewhat the world of hyrule before the calamity, which is something we’ve always wanted to see. not being able to explore even the immediate area at certain points because of shit like timed missions was really upsetting, man. :( i just wanted to see hyrule castle Before the calamity why was did they have to rob us like that.....

creepy corrupted egg’s transformation. why. what was that. what the fuck

even though i did enjoy the boss fights, it did get. incredibly taxing eventually to have to fight the SAME bastards so many times. like yeah botw is also guilty of this with the blights, but goddamn.... at least i have a choice to avoid certain encounters with them? this game has you fighting the same bitches like upwards of 3-4 times. it was. really annoying tbh. like the fights themselves are enjoyable, but damn we added new characters and it still inevitably lacked variety in boss fights.

no playable kass >:( if he’s available later in dlc then fine but i wish he was playable in the original game. so many random choices you’d never expect are. why couldn’t he also be there >:(

overall:

it will forever have that sour taste for the false advertising attached to it unfortunately, but that aside, i overall did enjoy the game! i think it has a lot to love in spite of the issues i encountered. as someone who has this as their first warriors game as well, it did lend itself to letting me see the appeal of them. idk if i’ll get more, but i do get why they’re so beloved/popular now. it was an alright time, with some amazing highlights that i’m gonna think back on very fondly for a very, very long time. if i had to rate it..... 7/10 

[ill-be-istj-if-no-one-else-is]

hii! so i was typed an infj, both by cognitive functions tests, personality tests, and the 16 personalities thingy. my enneagram is 6. so because the whole stigma around the mistypings of infj so i get really unsure of my type a lot. no other type resonates with me more but im not the calm, collected version infj’s are made out to be. as my best self i am chaotic, and excited, making no sense at all and being free. i am also not as morally righteous as infjs seem to be, however i used to be more

           chaotic infj back again. i do see myself being easily manipulated by people with npd and such and can also see myself using my NiFe to manipulate others sometimes without even noticing. i also see myself adjusting to those around me to make them the most comfortable, if they need someone shy or outgoing etc. however, because of the N preference in the community i feel i might be mistyped there, when i am in fact an s. i love ideas and big abstract themes such as morality, the nova effect 2/infj            

3/infj politics, mbti, etc but while still in highschool i see myself just wanting facts and facts and no abstract ideas and anytime there is not a definite answer i get anxious. this could be due to the competitive nature of my school and my perfectionism or when i get into an NiTi loop but i also wanted your opinion. i am very self aware and self reflective, hence why i can’t seem to stop doubting who i am, and i know thats a trait of infjs. i also resonate a lot with andrew garfield who is            

4/infj who is an infamous infp and i know im not as idealist as i used to be with politics but i still don’t think im as free flowing as an infp because i don’t revel in being different i hate it. thanks for listening and doing what you do and if you have any thoughts i would really like to hear them            

5/infj, also im sorry about using Ni and Fe and Ti and all those i forgot they were in ur faq and thats normally how i talk about mbti and i also know i used very average descriptions like morally righteous and stuff which is also in ur faq eek, im sorry i tried my best its hard to describe yourself             

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Hi anon,

Just to get it out of the way, I don’t have a typing for this and my advice is going to be what it is for many high schoolers who have difficulty describing themselves, which is wait until you’ve developed more as a person. It’s always hard to describe yourself, but it’s much harder when many of your choices are made for you and you’re still very much in the midst of figuring out who you are.

A few things to consider when retyping yourself in the future: first, tests are garbage. They type essentially everyone who shows mild curiosity about the world as an intuitive, anyone who isn’t extremely extroverted as an introvert, and reduce the valid differences between judgers and perceivers to neat/messy. I do find they’re often kind of okay on feeling vs. thinking (in the dichotomy sense - they can’t tell apart Fi from Fe), but that’s also something that in many cases I find relatively easy to tell. Anyway, the only thing I’d consider taking away from this is that you’re probably a feeler, and the information you provided seems to back that up.

Second, I’m not sure what your sources are for INFJ behavior. The fact is because this type is so commonly over typed, you can hear arguments for basically everything since people of all types think they’re INFJs and even the same descriptions often contradict, and not in a Walt Whitman kind of way but in a “wow you did not think this through” kind of way. I mean, what kind of moral person prides themselves on the door slam, an immature and stupid thing to do*? So I would just ignore all of those and try to type yourself, as a person, based on the functions.

For manipulations; first, how many people do you know with NPD? Like, actually diagnosed? I’m not saying it’s impossible you’ve run into them but I don’t think I’ve ever run into someone personally with an actual APD or NPD diagnosis that I knew of. Second, what specifically do you mean by manipulation? I find it’s an area that gets weirdly defined on Tumblr and sometimes people use it to refer to like, normally asking people to do things for you which is just being a person. Manipulation has an implication of underhanded tactics.

For liking philosophical ideas: I find most intelligent people do. Intuition vs. Sensing isn’t a matter of liking philosophical ideas in an academic/leisure setting; it’s more specifically about how you interact with them in your actual daily life when you’re not in school or spending your free time. I’m a physicist, like, as my job, and I love physics, and I was drawn to physics by a lot of cool theoretical ideas which I still find interesting - but I have absolutely no desire to be a theoretical physicist professionally. So I have a question, and a caveat here: first, would you be happy spending your life pondering philosophical or theoretical questions as a primary thing that you do? And for the caveat: in high school I absolutely would have said yes, and as a junior in college I realized the answer was actually a strong No, which is yet another reason why I think waiting to type yourself until you’re older is often a very good idea. (Note: this is not a perfect sensing/intuition question by any means anyway - I suspect a lot of ENTJs would answer No here because of their dominant Te. But it’s a valuable question to have in mind when typing yourself.)

I think being a little older will also shed whether you want guidance because you’re a sensor or guidance because of the general nature of high school and academic pressures, and whether you want to fit in because you have Fe or because of the general nature of high school. It’s worth noting that if you’re confident in a 6 core enneagram, that might be a factor whether you use high Fe or high Fi.

I don’t place a lot of value on who you relate to; not only do I not personally know Andrew Garfield’s type I think part of the nature of celebrity (and/or fictional characters) is projecting a persona that can appeal to a lot of people, and the reasons we relate to people often are about shared experience or a shared opinion about something important to us. We can relate to people of different types quite easily - which is good - but it means it’s not really a typing tool.

And finally I guess to clarify - the reason I ask people not to use MBTI terms in asking questions isn’t because I dislike it for its own sake - it’s because it makes it pretty much impossible for me to draw my own conclusions. Typing over the internet is always a challenge because I’m relying on someone’s own unintentionally cherry-picked understanding of their personality, rather than my observation, but when they use functions to describe what they do it, I don’t even know what they’re trying to say because there’s an additional layer of uncertainty based on whether their understanding of Fe (for example) is the same as mine and so I have nothing to go on and won’t be able to answer. Believe me, if the FAQ was about things I dislike rather than things I need to type well I would just be deleting every question in which someone ended a sentence with ‘lol’.

So: no idea on type other than feeler, but I hope the above gives you an idea of what to look for in the future, with the understanding that you might not be able to type yourself accurately for a while, and that’s fine.

*as always I make an exception if you’re cutting off ties with an abuser but a lot of the door slam descriptions aren’t “I stopped talking to my abuser and didn’t tell them why because it would put me in danger,” but rather “this person BETRAYED MY CONFIDENCES and I cannot ever forgive them, they have pushed me too far this time and I have given all of myself, but I shan’t be hurt again, I cannot bear it” and it’s all extremely amateur-production-of-a-Bronte-novel and melodramatic and very silly.

[straykidstrash]

darkness჻ღཾཿ༉ ༘bang chan

—“Maybe it wasn’t that bad. I mean the power cut.” 

College!Chan fluff

note: dis ma first scenario… I had a breakdown towards the end and I was about to delete the whole story yesterday, so excuse the shitty ending and uh this took me roughly a month, pls appreciate my effort lol, I’m insecure. 

word count: aprox. 3000

warnings: none, it’s just really cringy and lots of cliche shit… im a soft person

1st P.O.V & Switching

Chan’s P.O.V

Darkness. That’s all I can see, or rather cannot see. I’ve been living in this new apartment near my college for 2 weeks now and so far the power cut off three times. When I signed the contract, I didn’t expect much, this was pretty much the cheapest accommodation I could find and as a college student, I can’t always take care of my luxury needs. The worst part about the power falling out is, that I have no idea where the main switch is located. I get up and slowly drag my tired self to the window, light falling through the slit between the curtains. My hands find their way to the thin cotton and I push it aside. “Thought so,” I whisper. Judging by the lights shining brightly from the buildings in front of mine, it seems like we are the only ones without power. I step back from the window and take a look at my phone. “1:46 AM”. I could just sleep but considering that I still have papers to get done, I take a sip of my freshly brewed coffee and get back to work. My eyes fall on the little energy bar of my computer and the choice to sleep starts to sound really good again. 5% and an unsaved project, great duo. I abruptly get up, almost losing my slipper in that process, and stalk to the door. The doorknob is cold and I’m trying my best to turn it quietly, which turns out to be a really hard task in this trashy building. The door opens squeakily and I step outside. The cold air hits my bare arms, but that isn’t what surprises me.

(Y/N)’s P.O.V

Darkness. The only thing I’m afraid of. The feeling of not knowing what’s going to happen and losing a sense scares me. Living in this apartment for a couple of months taught me a lot. A broken sink? The plumber is in my contacts on top! Crumbling walls? No problem! The Power falling out? Could be a problem, especially because the landlord won’t take care of it until the next morning, but a very nice old lady, who’s living a floor above mine, usually lets me stay at hers over the night. I take a look at the clock in the kitchen. “1:45AM”, as expected. I shiver, my eyes automatically looking for something warm to wear, just to be disappointed by the darkness surrounding me. I start to wander around, my hands examining the surfaces for a hoodie. Something soft strokes my fingertips and I grasp it, it’s indeed a hoodie. I slip it on and tiptoe to the door. I step outside and try to quietly close the door again. I turn around and hush to the stairs, the windows letting some light shine into the stairwell. “Hey! Isn’t that my sweater!?”, I get a hold of the handrail and turn around. I stand face to face with a young men. “Sorry?”, I whisper back. He chuckles, “The hoodie you’re wearing, isn’t that mine?” I look down and mentally cringe. This is unbelievable. I have a tone of hoodies but hence the pitch blackness I grabbed the one laying on the counter. The one I found in the library and meant to bring back to the owner days ago. The young man cracks a smile and looks down. “I’m sorry, I am so so sorry! I found it in the library and I wanted to give it back to the owner but I didn’t know who the owner was so I just had it lying on my counter for the few past days, but then the power fell out and I get scared by the dark, so as always I wanted to go up to stay at my neighbor’s, but then I got cold and it was too dark for me to look at what’s printed on the back, I’m so-“, he interrupts my rant, “it’s ok, just give it back tomorrow, I guess”. A second passes… and another… and another… “Who are you!?” His eyes widen. “I-“, he chuckles, “I’m Bang Chan, I moved here two weeks ago. I live in this apartment”, he points to the door behind him, I nod. An awkward silence arises and Chan tries to break it, “Go already! You should sleep!”, “Yeah, I guess I should… It was nice to meet you, Bang Chan.” He sticks out his hand. I look at it and then back in his eyes, my hand shaking his. He gives me a heartwarming smile and I stumble away, trough the darkness, up the stairs.

Chan’s P.O.V

Back in my apartment, I turn to my laptop. 4%. Fuck it, I can work on my papers tomorrow. I save the documents and shut it close. No bright light is left to illuminate the room. I make my way to the bedroom, careful not to walk in any of the remaining boxes. I fall on my bed, the sheets are soft and I swiftly slide under the covers. While shuffling around to find a comfortable position, my mind goes back to the girl I met in the stairwell. I had seen her around, on the campus, always hurrying out of the library, to get to the next class, with books under her arm and an open backpack swung on her shoulder. She didn’t even tell me her name, I’m gonna have to find it out a different time. 

Soft knocks let me arouse. My eyelids are heavy, and it’s difficult for me to read the time on my bright phone. Apparently, I haven’t even slept for 20 minutes. I let my head sink back into the pillow. The knocks come back, now much more urgently. My body feels heavy and it takes every muscle to get up. I slur to the door and ruffle through my bed hair, my curls are now worse than before, but I still get hold of the doorknob and pull the door open. I need a second to grasp the situation, but immediately as I understand that the girl, who lives on the same floor as me, is standing in front of me sobbing with a bleeding lip, I pull her in a hug trying to comfort her. Her tears stain my shirt. My hand comes in contact with her hair and I slowly stroke her head. I move a bit backwards, still holding her in my arms to close the front door, she stays unfazed. We stand still, the cold air occasionally brushing my neck or my ankles. As the times passes by, I randomly let out a hum or change from stroking her head to her back, feeling the unknown artist print under my touch. “Hey”, my voice is steady and I can feel her calming down, “I’m sorry, I don’t think I even know your name but”, I halt, “Do you wanna talk to me?”. She loses her arms which found their way to my torso and lets them fall down to her sides. She lowers her head and looks at her feet. “My name is Y/N”, she mumbles. “I, well it’s actually really dumb, but uh I just wanted to quickly go up and spend the night at Ms Park’s place but she wasn’t home so I wanted to go back but I forgot my keys. I have no idea why, I never forgot my keys before! I didn’t know where to go so I went to the convenience store at the end of the street, I didn’t have any money with me though.” I tilt my head giving her a small smile.“And why is your lip bleeding?” She raises her hand and carefully touches her lip.“Ah! Right”, she sniffs, “After I came back from the store, I wanted to get back to the building but because of the missing light I tripped and fell on the stairs. That’s why.” I gently tuck on her hand. “Let’s get out of this hallway” She turns around and I carefully shove her towards the kitchen. I can hear her chuckle, I hum questioning. “Even though I hate the darkness, I’m really glad that you can’t see my face right now. My face isn’t necessarily appealing after crying.” I guide her towards a chair and let her sit down. The kitchen is slightly illuminated by the bright city lights and Y/N’s eyes shimmer. My hoodie is already big on me but she looks like she’s getting eaten by it. I hand her the tissues and lean on the kitchen counter, my legs and arms crossed. A comfortable silence takes over.

Y/N’s P.O.V

“Are you tired?”, I look up, Chan’s eyes glitter. He uncrosses his arms and lets his fingers tap against the kitchen counter. I look outside, still pondering about whether I’m tired or not. In the corner of my eye, I can see Chan tilting his head. “A bit?” I answer, my eyes still capturing the city lights. “You have a nice view, unlike me. I look at an empty street with less than 3 street lamps.” He chuckles, “You’re right, I do have a nice view, but it’s also really bright at night. I have to get thicker and darker curtains in the next few days.” Chan follows my stare outside. “I’m guessing if you had as much light as I do, you wouldn’t be wearing my hoodie right now.” I smile, he’s right. Silence, again. I want to speak up, but I’m sitting in a strangers kitchen without my phone or power, I honestly don’t know what’s appropriate right now. “You haven’t answered my question yet”, the Stranger turns to look at me, I follow his actions. “Yes I did, I said I’m a bit tired.” His eyes widen slightly, “You’re right! My bad. I can show you the way to the bedroom, if you want to sleep. I don’t have a proper couch yet but I think the old one”, he looks through the open door at an extremely damaged couch, “will do for me”. He can’t be serious. “No! I can sleep on the couch! I barged in and woke you up, so I’ll sleep there. Don’t even try to be a gentleman!” He musters me and starts to speak, “You didn’t even barge in. And how did you know that I was already sleeping!?” I point to his hair and shrug, “I don’t know, I just… your hair kind of told me.” He nods and pushes himself off the counter, “Do you want some other pants? Or are yours comfortable? I’m guessing you want to keep the hoodie on? It’s really cold in here. I can show you the bathroom right now.” He rambles. I stand up, “No, I don’t need any other pants, I just need a blanket, Yes I’m gonna keep it on if it’s okay and yes please, show me the bathroom.”

It’s quiet. My legs hang uncomfortably of the couch and my face feels frozen. I try to nuzzle it deeper into the pillow, unsuccessful. My mind goes wild. The living room didn’t seem so intimidating earlier and the unpacked boxes, who are towering above me, are for sure not helping. I turn around, the already warm spot under the blanket disappears and I stare at the couch, the room now behind me. My mind goes even wilder. What if somebody, no something, wants to take me to its secret cave under the ground!? The cold air tickles my neck and sends goosebumps all over my spine. I bolt up, I have to get up again in approximately 6 hours, a little bit of sleep would be nice, but I won’t get any of that If I stay here. Wrapped up in Chan’s huge blanket, I slur to the bedroom. The door creaks open before I can even get a hold of the doorknob. Chan stands in the Doorframe, his eyes widen. “I wanted to check up on you”, he quietly says, “You said you were afraid of the dark. I was worried, but uh what brought you here?” I honestly have no idea what my plan was, “You’re right, I was afraid, I don’t know why I came to your bedroom though.” “You can sleep in my bed, it’s definitely big enough for two. I mean, as long as it’s not making you uncomfortable”, Chan mumbles. I hesitate for a second but the thought of being alone makes me sprint past Chan. I let myself fall on the soft mattress, careful not to break the whole bed. I lock eyes with the dimpled boy and he chuckles while closing the door. Chan swiftly slides under his thin blanket, which he inevitably had to use, since he gave me the thick one. I can hear him shuffle, wow I’m really shitty, am I? I sleep in a man’s bed, who moved here like 2 weeks ago and I’m taking his hoodie AND his blanket. “Chan?” He lets out a hum. “I’m sorry for wearing your hoodie and using your blanket. You said you’d have a proper second one but wow that’s more like a towel! The blanket is huge, do you maybe… want to share it?”, I shyly propose. Just like me earlier, he doesn’t think twice and joins me under the blanket. “I hope I’m not making you feel uncomfortable.” “I asked you to share the blanket.” I turn around, careful not to pull the blanket of Chan. We lie back to back. Chan’s breath is steady, but not as if he was sleeping. I don’t wanna break the silence, but I just have to. “Chan. Why doesn’t glue stick to the bottle?” I swear I can hear him curse, “I don’t know (Y/N), I’m guessing the bottle has a resisting layer or it’s made out of a special material. Maybe glue needs to come in contact with the air ”, he sighs. “Hmm, I guess you’re right”, I answer. “Cool.” “Cool.” I’m trying to resist the urge to move further to Chan, I just need some bodyheat!! I don’t want to annoy him more than I already did, but my thoughts and the coldness are keeping me wide awake. “Chan, I can’t sleep. I don’t want this to be awkward, but I haven’t slept in the same bed with somebody since… never mind, I’m sorry for not letting you sleep”. Chan shifts under the blanket, now looking at my back, I follow him. I look at his shimmering eyes and I suddenly feel lonely. “Since when?”, he quietly asks. “Since my boyfriend left me. It’s ok tho, I’m over him, I just… miss certain things”, it’s true. ”Wanna talk about it?”, do I? I turn on my back and stare at the ceiling. “He was a good boyfriend, we just couldn’t understand each other. The things he said and did, are till this day a mystery to me. He probably thinks the same about me. We wanted to end it on good terms, but there were already too many misunderstandings standing between us, we fought a lot on our way to the breakup. I don’t regret it though! I just miss having fun with him, we shared the same humour and he always tried to show me that he cared about my well being. He made me feel less alone. I don’t know, Chan.” It feels burdensome to tell him about my past relationship, but a part of me feels relieved. “I-, do you want a hug? I don’t know how to comfort people who feel lonely, but maybe-”, before he can finish his sentence, I lift the blanket a tiny bit, just enough to let myself dive into Chan’s embrace. “Yes. Yes I do want a hug”, I mumble into his shoulder, his arms slowly find their way around me, so slow, that I almost back off again. His fingertips timidly caress my back with little drawings. We stay still, the only audible noises are our breaths. I let my arms slip out from between our chests and pull the blanket further up against his chin. He curiously perks a brow at me, “Well, I am the one wearing a hoodie and the seals are worthless”, he snickers, “Thank you for sharing your body heat with me Y/N”. I open my mouth to give him a witty response, but nothing comes out, the darkness hiding my blushing face. 

My breath eventually calms down, Chan stopped drawing little patterns on my arm already minutes ago. My mind feels drowsy and I’m slowly making my way into the land of dreams. Chan’s whisper enters my mind one last time, before I finally doze off,

“Maybe it wasn’t that bad. I mean the power cut.” 

(Please keep in mind that English is not my first language. Feedback is highly appreciated, thank you for reading  :)

[sealedbeastnue]

early-mid season (brunch?) anime review time, featuring acclaimed hits such as Oreimo 2: Incest Divide By 0 Error, Re:Zero Sidequest: Furry Fuckers who Shit in the Woods, and my personal favorite, The Cube Show

oh god this is so long im officially otaku trash here we go

so lets start with the best show ever:

clockwork planet: wow this was weak. I really liked No Game No Life but this does not hold that standard (not that it’s a high standard to aspire to but this is just not as fun). This was absurdly slow cheap looking trash that uses a Potentially Interesting concept to do absolutely nothing. dropped. dropped right on its dumb head full of gears.

alice to zouroku: also looks pretty cheap but it has a lot of interesting stuff going on. I don’t know how to Feel. the show hasn’t really ramped up yet but it could go in a ton of directions and I’m ready to be totally blindsided by where this goes.

ID-0: man this really is the Season of Baffling Concepts. tay keeps telling me this is a comedy but im not seein it. I think it’s a pretty decent space sci fi concept show that seems to be gearing up for... something philosophical? no clue. I like what we’re setting up and I want more. unfortunately this is the type of show where, like with gatchaman, I cannot physically focus my eyes on the mech designs long enough to realy appreciate them. probably just my problem though.

seikaisuru kado: the real standout of the SF offerings this season and my personal favorite this far. I don’t want to spoil too much but The Cube Show is not a show you should skip. looks and sounds fantastic, concept is great, writing is... really not fucking around at all, is it? slow, grindy high concept sci fi with very human characters (lol get it). this will be remembered even if it ends up being stupid (it wont). dont miss it

re:creators: I really dont know. every episode is an infodump but we’ve got a cool cast of characters, they’re likeable, and this has tons of potential. IIRC this is the team that did aldnoah:zero so it could go to shit instantly but for now it’s solid and has me wanting more. also gunpuku no himegimi <3 design <3

oushitsu kyoushi haine: had no expectations and was not planning to watch, turns out this is top 5 shows this season? it’s not fujobait. probably. has a fantastic OP/ED pair, looks consistently Really Good and everyone’s likeable. also if we’re going to bring back chibi this is the way to do it: sparingly, and with really strong visual gags. the one thing I REALLY WANT is more worldbuilding

uchouten kazoku S2: glorious so far. this is even more wild than season 1. if you haven’t heard of uchouten and you have even a passing interest in japanese mythology, comedy, or shapeshifting moms you really should go check it out - everyone is a FUCKER and everything Escalates Very Fast. tenmaya is best waifu of this season though... this fucking old guy... hes perfect

eromanga sensei: call me trash I dont give a shit. this show is pretty good. its definitely weird siscon bullshit but its pretty good regardless. I like to have fun. do you like to have fun?

sakura quest: more like Too Real Feels Quest. if you’re a person in your 20s-30s who has ever struggled with adult life in any way, this is for you. I have no idea how something like this got produced in the current industry climate but it’s fuckin great and painful and honest and real. I have a pet theory that Manoyama is Not On Earth as We Know It and that this town is fae folk btw lets see how that plays out

bastard akashic records magical instructor super dangerous dudessss better watch out boyz: likeable just because of how blatantly shitheaded MC is. these character designs... uh... those sure are garter belts... so far this is entertaining and not much else but that’s okay they dont all have to be miracles

soutai sekai: I have no idea why this exists or what can justify this show. Reol why did you get involved in this. you’re so far above trash like this. someone must have offered her serious fucking dosh to associate herself with this. im gonna complete it (its only 2 eps) but this is definitely garbage.

girl beats boys: ever wanted to watch cromartie highschool but with no comedy instead its kind of a weird documentary? turns out I did. this is kind of fun actually! it’s so odd I can’t help but admire it

maid dragon specials: ?????????????okay???? if we gotta

kabukibu: I’m a big fan of SHOUTING AWKWARDLY. dropped instantly. dont care if accurate, this is weird and dumb.

frame arms girl: this is where it becomes clear that I have desperately overextended this season and have become WAY too generous with my time when it comes to anime. this was a miscalculation I am regretting. also, this show isn’t good but I guess I can see the appeal. if anything should be an 8-minute-episodes show it’s this. probably dropped.

forest fairy five: I got bamboozled by the cover. I can’t make an excuse for my foolishness. It Will Not Happen Again.

high school fleet OVA: this needed to come like six months ago if you wanted to capitalize on this. I dont remember a single one of these characters. sorry lads, its not workin

mahoutsukai OVA 2/3: Yes. show coming in the fall is fucking hype

sin: nanatsu no taizai: I, too, like to get fucked by tentacles. also Miami

sekai no yami zukan:

also currently watching:

kekkai sensen: holy shit dude this is so good. I can’t believe the animation and music quality? how is this not legendary? maybe it gets fucked up down the line but on episode 3 this whole concept is such a solid package I cant see myself not loving it very strongly.

scrapped princess: I sscrappedddd (JOKES!!!) this show a few times bt now that I’m finally giving it a chance I can see that the fight scenes have a surprisingly good quality and end up in cool locations (crystal caves with actual foley work to back it up? and a complete tonal shift in the visuals? sign me the fuck up dude)

older stuff I finished recently:

did I mention girls und panzer last time? probably. this is still great though. I cant get over the fucking Finnish artillery gun scene in the movie jfc this is just soooo good

so ra no wo to: fantastic as a slice of life/military show with musical elements. if you see people comparing this to K-On tell them to fuck off because the only similarity is the time they were released. this isnt a light music club show. probably the best visual style of any show I’ve watched recently - really sets the tone of the show and adds a LOT of otherworldly and mysterious qualities... strong girls... let them be strongth... OP/ED is wonderful too

death parade: looked pretty cool. ended up making me kind of sad and the characters were a bit empty (no I’m not counting the fact that they’re Puppets as a valid reason for that). more than enough has been written about this show.

upotte: who told me to watch this? who the fuck? I’m gonna find them strangle them. dropped this is for weird gun otaku smeglords

kuzu no honkai: my dick was absolutely raw at the end of this. I was leaning to the side and hunching over slightly for the next 24 hours. people who dont like this have never been challenged by a horrible relationship and/or are repulsed by raw painful emotionally-charged human sexuality (both of these things are fine by the way)

rakugo lovers double suicide (season 1): on the other hand. with regard to human sexuality. time for probably my most controversial opinion ive ever had. this show is GARBAGE. VALUELESS GARBAGE. the characters are absurdly, laughably flat; the entire season is a bait and switch; it’s REALLY SLOW and drags for about 2/3 of the season because it only had about 4 episodes worth of actual content; every character motivation makes no sense especially the death scene near the end are you serious? did people really take that seriously? I was so irritated by the fact that this went down like this that I actually had to go away from my computer for a while. this show isn’t gay either, it’s the most painfully straight thing and it has no perspective other than that of a straight person who has never experienced anything outside of their sphere of comfort. also FUCK this hoe what is her PROBLEM? go ditch her stupid ass if she’s gonna be like that. she’s an abusive partner who abandoned her child repeatedly and it is absolutely ridiculous that they put up with her presence. they’re all pretty abusive though so whatever I guess that  makes this fine. people who enjoyed this, I’m sorry but you got fucking duped man. this was not written by a fully formed human mind. this was its season’s Yuri on Ice and is currently hideously overrated. please do not waste your time on this. or do, so you can see how awfully it’s written and understand that Most People Are Dumb Idiots With No Taste.

ao oni the animation: please explain why this franchise was ever popular. I do not fucking get it. I really tried. this show came about 6 years too late regardless I cannot justify its existence

gakuen handsome: 2deep4me zaaannkoku no tenshiii no these (evangelion playing in the background my third eye is opening)

yumekui merry: Painful. if this is actually a quality show, my bad but fuck these goddamn cats. I hate anthropomorphic cats with all of my being

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“Home is where your story begins....”

That’s it. Every story has to stop. Today. Mine just ended. Another chapter ended. And it is overwhelming to say that the the finale is a rooted one. Deeply-seated at the bottom of my heart. 

March 24, 2017, Friday, the day I ventured into something foreign to me. No matter how many times I insisted to work at Makati, My fate simply just wont escort me to my desire. So yes, that exact date, I had my stop at Pasay. I was brought there without any notion of what to anticipate. Initial days weren’t so appealing to me. Bounded by the idea that I wont stay at the place long enough. Obviously because I searched for the things I used to experience with my previous job. The comfort of what I am familiar with is what I am maneuvering to vibe. Awfully, the alienation I felt fenced me to oversee His plans. Even discriminated the idea of exploring the hidden answers to ‘Why’s’. Unconsciously, the plot begun to unwrap almost all the ambiguity. The coming of days granted me the realizations I was seizing. I was placed there mainly because…. I am destined to meet these people; holding the every keys to distinctive undertakings. Thus here are the recognition & gratitude I earnestly composed. 

KC - Siya ‘yong pinaka unang taong nakagaanan ko ng loob. Ung lagi kong pinagtatanungan. Lalo nung bago pa ko. Unang laging nakakasama. Also, back then, she frequently asks me ‘If I am okay’. I admire how sociable you are, KC. You’ve got the capability of being able to adapt to one’s nature so easily hence making that individual feel much more at ease by your side. Magaling kang makisama. Kahit anong character ng isang tao kaya mong i-adjust ang sarili mo to build a friendship. Honestly, nahihiya ako sayo tuwing kasabay kita pag uwi nung una. Awkward sa side ko sobra. Hindi ko alam kung ano bang ioopen up sayo na hindi boring. Wala naman kasing excitement sa buhay ko. I suck at small talks, evidently. Im just grateful at how you’ve got the initiative to ask me and start a convo. You’re that kind of a person who’s willing to listen to any kind of stories. You showed me sincerity whenever I tell you something. You listen without interrupting. That is one thing so good about you as a friend. Not just a story teller but also a listening ear. KC, I thank you for the times you were there to listen to my nonsense ideas, thoughts, senseless talks, etc. I also, adore how natural you are. Careless of any. Not afraid to express your wants and what you wanted to say. Though at times ang tindi ng expressions mo. Hahaha. These qualities made you approachable and not hard to get along with. I feel flattered when you get my ideas with regards to random things/topics. Thank you! You are one sweet lady. :) I’ll miss you’re clingy-ness (and kilay) madam fashionista. Salamat kasi ikaw ung naging una kong friend sa work!

Louise - Louise! Mamimiss ko ung tawa mo! Minsan sayo talaga ko mas lalong natatawa kaysa sa mismong dapat tawanan. Wagas ka kasi mag react. Dati ikaw ung lagi kong kasama sa pag check ng box sa D. At wala tayong ginawa kundi tumawa lang din. Kahit pag nag-aattach. Hahaha! Ang loka mo kasi eh. I thank you for the laughter we’ve shared together. I love how lively you are as a person. Jolly(bee) and cheerful. :D Madaling pakisamahan. Appreciative. Thank you kasi lagi ka din nag t-thank you pag nagbibigay ako ng kung ano man sayo. You give back by saying those things and that’s more than enough to make someone feel flattered toward what they’ve done even if it was just small things. Mamimiss ko ung mala-grocery mong pagbili. XD Ung pagiging prangka mo sa mga bagay na napapansin mo. Haha! At oo nga pala, minsan talaga pag tumitingin ka… nakaka-intimidate. Ba’t ganon? Haha. Anyway, you deserve a man who will love you co-equal/ more than the love you could offer him. Someone who isn’t manly enough to express his affection towards you isn’t worthy of you at all. Hopefully makanap ka ng partner mo na pahahalagahan ka. :) Someone who will treat you right this time. Aja! Hahaha! Mahahanap ka din niya! Wag mo siyang hanapin. Sorry pala kasi solo flight ka na. :( Wala ka nang partner sa pag officer. It was never my intention to abandon you friend. I’ll miss you partner!    

Joan - Sissy! Our zodiacs got us closer. That’s what I know! Our hubbies will forever be close so as the two of us (hoepfully). From the very start I know that we’ll get along. At your pioneering days at home, I immediately observed the similarities we have. Same as me, you are not used to speak out your mind. Most especially when in group. You observe and listen rather than sharing your own version of the story. Quiet at times but fun to talk to. Focused on her duties. Organized, truthfully speaking. Salamat sa pagsama mo sakin, anytime, anywhere. Hahaha! For taking over my obligations during the days that my presence cannot be found. Nature ko talaga kasi maging ‘missing in action’. LOL. Mamimiss ko ung chat mo. You are my Dept. Store buddy as well! Shopping over here and there. XD Yung biruan natin, usapan, tawanan, these are worth remembering. Okay… balik tayo sa observant. Haha! You are my mind reader. As in! Am I too obvious or what? Clearly, you are able to tell what I feel, think and predict my next move. Kudos to you! Skill yan. May future kang maging manghuhula. Hahahaha. Also, you’ve become my consultant; pertaining hair, lip tint, etc. I’ll miss you being by my side, canteen buddy. Omg. Ang dami na. Pahabol, salamat sa masasarap mong supplies ng pagkain! Lalo na sa chocolate cake. Heaven! Pag ikakasal na kayo ni Lay invite mo ko!    

Jackie - Seatmate! You! Yes you! The one I consider as my closest friend at the workplace. My trusted confidant. You’ve seen me, laugh, cry, angered, annoyed, dumbfounded. You are the witness to my every emotions. I would’ve never thought we’d be this close. But it happened. Dahil sa kadaldalan mo, nabasag mo ‘yong invisible wall ko. Haha! Peace. Out of the blue, mag k-kwento ka. Hanggang sa humaba na ung usapan. Our commonalities in numerous aspects strengthen our bonds. In a span of ‘just’ months you are able to define how I am as a friend/person. You know my fears and strengths. Somehow unlocked the hidden. You know every details to my previous mishaps. Comforted me at my down times. During tengga days, I’ll miss our throwback singing session. Lol. Thankful to have known a co-fangirl. True. We relate in so many things the reason why we seldom have dull moments. I’ll miss your random stories. *Ehem* Your corny jokes! Hindi ko alam kung may magpapatawa pa sakin sa next work ko. :( Thankful that I got to sit beside you.. the part I’ll surely be missing as well. We may have fought. But we did get over it. It was the very first time I made a move to talk to someone I had a conflict with. Sorry and thank you for understanding. Ang mean ko dahil sa topak ko. Pasensya na po. Pero alam mo yon, natatawa na lang ako pag naaalala ko.. na un pa ung muntik na dahilan para mapaaga ang pag alis ko sa Homeworld. LOL! Salamat din sa lagi mong pagtulong sa pag check ng box sa D. I may not be showy, but Im more than grateful to have you as a colleague. As per the answer you’ve been pestering me to hear? Yes. I stayed because I realized that you guys mattered to me. Karapat-dapat kayong makilala at makasama pa ng matagal. Ung samahan ng tropa, hindi kasi un ung tipong madaling iwanan. The friendship we built may be breakable. Yet, it is one thing we know that will always be there. It existed. We are composed of different personalities but we are symmetrical to one another. And now that it’s already been 1 year I think it’s enough for me to hold on to all the memories. A thing that’ll retain. Thank you for always being there friend! I’ll never forget~ Kung may nagawa man akong hindi mo kinatuwa, sorry. Sana matupad na ang So Kor dreams mo soon!

Ms. Nessa - First impression ko dati, may pagka-masungit ka. Hahaha! Naaalala ko pa, halos lagi mo kong kinukulit non. Sabi mo ang sarap kong asarin kasi tumatawa lang ako. Un tlaga ung dahil kung bakit ayaw kung nagsososrt sa counter noon. Joke. Haha! Tapos ang tagal kong inaccept ung friend request mo sa Fecebook. Hindi ko alam kung paano tayo naging close. Pero feeling ko un ung kakatanong mo sakin kung kailan ako aalis. At hindi ko din tlaga inasahan na magiging close tayo. :) Thank you for everything Ms Nessa! Mamimiss kitang ipag-sort ng Asinan. Syempre joke lng un. Haha. Thank you sa advices mo. Tsaka sa pakikinig mo sakin lalo na nung naging roller coaster ride ang isang buong linggo ko. Thank you for opening up to me without hesitations. Salamat sa trust. I pray only the best for your family. Lalo na sa kauna-unahan kong inaanak. Alam kong mapapalaki mo siya ng tama. More bonding moments sa inyo ni baby Grabriel. Sorry kasi medyo magulo ung area mo noong pagbalik mo galing ML. Hehehe! I’ve known you for 1 year already! Akalain mo nga naman. :)

Bambi - B1? B2? Which is which? Haha! Bago pa man dumating sila Jackie, ikaw muna ang laging kasama ko. Salamat sa tawanan at kwentuhan. Whenever you say you’ll miss me, I am hardly convinced. Now that this time I’d truly be gone, I assure that I’ll believe you this time, if, you’ll still do. Thank you for lending me a hand, always. If we ever meet again, sana matuloy na ung hiking natin. Hahaha! I wish you and your ‘Jersern’ a stable relationship kahit na alam kong bipolar ka. (^^)v

Zen - Hi Zen! Ikaw ung isa sa madalas kong tulungan tuwing details kasi alam naman nating lagi kang champion. Hahaha. Mamimiss ko ung mga nakaka-shookt mong expressions Zen. The best ka talaga magulat. Super thank you nga pala sa gift mo!

Nori - Na-stress ako pumili ng gift na ibibigay ko sayo nung Christmas Party. Lol. Sobrang general lang kasi. I do not know much about you. Also, you rarely ask for my help during details. So anyways hahaha Thank you for giving me your Corn Flavored Energen nung time na sobrang nag-crave ako. HAHA! Pati pala sa Shingaling. This food shall also be a reminder of you. :) Sorry kung inaasar kita ‘non kay J*n***. Haha. Ang cute nyo kasi, Kung magkatuluyan man kayo patabain mo yon haha kawawa nangangalansay eh. Hihi. I pray for the best sa inyo ng baby girl mo. It is never easy to face trials alone. But having her as your reason is enough to carry on. May you find the right man that’ll take good care of you and your daughter in the near future. :)

Benny -  Hi Ben! Hihi. I can still recall how we got comfortable with each other.. Yun ung kailangan kitang samahan sa Building F para maghanap ng O.R. Hahaha. Nahihiya ako non sa Shuttle kasi baka alam mo yon, *croo croo* Hahaha. Pero nag start ka mag rant sakin regarding sa work at kung gaano ka nabababdtrip. Hanggang sa ayon na. Yun na yon. XD Ehem, your collection of crushes. Thank you for your openness. I appreciate the trust. :) But here I’ll confess. Pero alam kong nasabi ko na ‘to sayo ng personal dati. ….Na nasabi kay ‘ano’ na may taga hanga siya sa Home. Peace. :( Sorry. Hindi naman siya intentional may isang beses kasi na inaaway ako non so binanggit ko yon nang tumahimik ang lolo mo. Hindi man ako nag drop ng name. Pero sorry pa rin Bens. Won’t happen again. I’ll miss you ‘Terminal Buddy’. Pati yung mabilis mong paglalakad, pag bitibit at pagbalot ng Terminal Pay. You’ve been challenged by putting you in that position (Not Trade) so early. Pero tignan mo naman ngayon, okay ka na. Proud at masaya ko’t naka-adapt ka na sa work. Kayang-kaya mo na. :) Lastly, thank you sa movies. Naka-save ako ng kuryente. Nyahahaha.  

And sa mga random people na na-meet ko during my stay

Kuya dispatcher ng Paliparin, thank you for always prioritizing me kasi sabi mo malelate na ko. 

HSC acctg bosses. It was a privilege to be under your supervision and guidance. Thank you po!

To the heads and bosses, I am not in the position to judge you… For wearing  grumpy faces. I do not know the number of scratches you crumpled and throw out to reach your titles. It might be your purpose.. to bring out the guts out of a delicate kind of a person. To remind that a person can still cross the limit she thought as the final end of her character. Just that, I am too afraid yet to break that in a single blink. My only wish…. be gentler to some who can’t handle fall backs. Generalizing people may cause others to weaken more than her current state. 

Tropang triplets. This is to acknowledge your patience and gentlemanlike manner despite of my ever masungit and demanding temperament. Very much aware that I am hard to deal with but you, dudes, made it through. Haha. Stress no more over your never-ending boxes. Though you are pestering me countless times, I thank you for helping me with my concerns. Sorry for being brutal and moody often times. :P

Kuya JRS 1&2, message center, protemps messengers, utilities, suppliers, canteen staff, Kuya Globe na hi-tech magpa-receieve… Thank you for your involvement in my work experience.

Kuya Asinan & friends who seldom had lapses greeting me and tolerating my requests, thank you.  

From July to April….. monthly, I used to say I’ll be leaving by this particular month. On the other hand, I hardly can’t do it. Kasi hindi ko alam na…. na-attach na pala ko. Na ganito pala yung close to perfect na set ng workmates na gusto ko. Kung saan kumportable ako. But then, an opportunity turned distress got me withdraw from once a fine routine. I am almost stuffed with self doubt within that trials. More so, my faith Above is collapsing when I thought it isnt. I am shamefully guilty for disappointing the Highest. Prior to this discomforting scenario, I’ve decided to render my days til the last day of April. Except that, I’ve decided to immediately pursuit an escape. Granted by Him. Hence, voiding everything on April 2. What if’s questions ponders upon me. I pity myself for giving up too soon and blinding my eyes to see the miracle that is in the work. Stepping stone is in the grasp of my own hands yet I was too unwary to take a grip. 

Thank you for the warm send off.

Ill miss you all always and forever. Love youuuuuuu